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venusundaei guess i complain about taurus all the time lmao. i mean i know i do. oh, i know. but i guess other people are starting to notice.
it's not that i can't relate to taurus. i'm a libra. venus is our mutual hoe. but that's honestly probably what makes them so infuriating? bc it's like you are me only slower and more stubborn and i am not making time for it smh...
i'm thinking about this bc i called out my friend a while ago for being late all the damn time and now he's rly hung up on that and how i always "call him on his shit, oh man" or w/e. i think he's trying to express gratitude while also being embarrassed haha. meanwhile i'm over here thinking honestly if you want me to "call you out" then sit down my friend, everyone knows you're always late that's nothing.
but anyway. this happened recently after he had his birthday and i for some reason was shocked and appaled to learn he is a taurus and not a capricorn. really what's the difference? (kidding... a little). when i was like "wait you're a taurus!?" he said "yes! we have legit had this conversation so many times but you always forget" and honestly i probably did that on purpose. also the fact that he kept referring to how much fun we had at his birthday last year even tho it was at a bar so i didn't go probably added to it but i digress!!!
i just don't get along w the earth sign archetypes very easily. again, i knew this. but it's become a forefront theme lately and i am scared to find out why wooo.
and i am enamoured with virgo. i have said this. i stand by this. perfect exists and her name is virgo and also i love her. but in my chart jupiter is in virgo and god has that been smacking me in the face so hard lately.
every time i slow down for seven seconds and think hey, how the FUCK do i work so hard but make such little progress??? i remember them. virgo trying to give jupiter dancing lessons all up in my symbolic registry and jupiter... oh sweet jupiter. everyone's best friend jupiter! jupiter who leaves voicemails saying "hello, it's okay that you didn't answer i just wanted to take the chance to remind you i love you! also i filled your tank with gas. thanks for being you~"
jupiter who does exactly the same steps virgo shows them over and over in the eternal vingette of my unfortunate placement of the two, and asks if they've got it right. and virgo gives jupiter that pained half-smile and goes "it was cute, dear. but was it perfect?" (no it wasn't. but will it ever be? oh ho ho)
this all meaning that this is my own limitation i have set for myself and i know it; i need everything to be absolutely P E R F E C T before i am allowed to recieve the rewards. yea! how annoying right!!!
and i remember exactly what this friend said when i had to reassure him i don't hate him for being a taurus bc my petty instinct every time someone brings it up is a flippant "ugh i fucking hate taurus", and that i am actually referring to taurus as the concept, the archetype - which i also don't truly hate - and not all people with their sun in taurus:
"yea well see i try to not get caught up in that stuff because like i don't want to let that define me you know?"
and i get it. but here is the real point. not bc it's a big deal but bc he was saying it to shut me up so now i have to lmao. whether he gives a shit about the fact that his sun is in taurus or not, this Friend is still always late. he's also incredibly stubborn, but good at talking about himself as tho he is not. he's mega sensitive, and wil lecture you on shit he has big ole feelings about but in a way that sounds like he knows what he is factually talking aboutu (even tho everyone can tell he does not. i mean it like. everyone has beef w him over this). he is a great businessman and has his shit in pies all over town or whatever.
and whether i knew anything about my chart or not, i am still an overbarring perfectionist toward my own endeavors, to the point where i sabotage my own self because i feel guilty letting myself put out art or take action toward goals that are anything less than perfect. i can overthink myself into any emotion and motivation i decide to, like somebody with not one but two air signs in their big three. and i also let my sappy ass leo rising decide what those emotions and motivations should be today. but libra and aquarius will make it sound logical every time i swear to god.
but because i am into astrology i know my faults and how to deal w them, and my friend keeps on living life as a stubborn obnoxious sucker with no self awareness!
oh, i'm just kidding. well i am a little bit kidding.
like maybe astrology is fake, right? of course. duh. okay. moving forward. it's just pattern recognition, and humans are notoriously hardwired to be good at that. it's why we invent bogus ass languages and then can still become fluent in them. i dig the entire ambiance. it's very dramatic and romantic in some ways, right? look at the planets to show you your own soul, and also all the ways in which you suck. i dig that! but if all this hyper awareness of a human created pattern is helping me be self aware of my own faults and strengths and biases in a practical way then like. come on. just let me have my aesthetic.
(and my aesthetic says taurus: get it together, please)
it's not that i can't relate to taurus. i'm a libra. venus is our mutual hoe. but that's honestly probably what makes them so infuriating? bc it's like you are me only slower and more stubborn and i am not making time for it smh...
i'm thinking about this bc i called out my friend a while ago for being late all the damn time and now he's rly hung up on that and how i always "call him on his shit, oh man" or w/e. i think he's trying to express gratitude while also being embarrassed haha. meanwhile i'm over here thinking honestly if you want me to "call you out" then sit down my friend, everyone knows you're always late that's nothing.
but anyway. this happened recently after he had his birthday and i for some reason was shocked and appaled to learn he is a taurus and not a capricorn. really what's the difference? (kidding... a little). when i was like "wait you're a taurus!?" he said "yes! we have legit had this conversation so many times but you always forget" and honestly i probably did that on purpose. also the fact that he kept referring to how much fun we had at his birthday last year even tho it was at a bar so i didn't go probably added to it but i digress!!!
i just don't get along w the earth sign archetypes very easily. again, i knew this. but it's become a forefront theme lately and i am scared to find out why wooo.
and i am enamoured with virgo. i have said this. i stand by this. perfect exists and her name is virgo and also i love her. but in my chart jupiter is in virgo and god has that been smacking me in the face so hard lately.
every time i slow down for seven seconds and think hey, how the FUCK do i work so hard but make such little progress??? i remember them. virgo trying to give jupiter dancing lessons all up in my symbolic registry and jupiter... oh sweet jupiter. everyone's best friend jupiter! jupiter who leaves voicemails saying "hello, it's okay that you didn't answer i just wanted to take the chance to remind you i love you! also i filled your tank with gas. thanks for being you~"
jupiter who does exactly the same steps virgo shows them over and over in the eternal vingette of my unfortunate placement of the two, and asks if they've got it right. and virgo gives jupiter that pained half-smile and goes "it was cute, dear. but was it perfect?" (no it wasn't. but will it ever be? oh ho ho)
this all meaning that this is my own limitation i have set for myself and i know it; i need everything to be absolutely P E R F E C T before i am allowed to recieve the rewards. yea! how annoying right!!!
and i remember exactly what this friend said when i had to reassure him i don't hate him for being a taurus bc my petty instinct every time someone brings it up is a flippant "ugh i fucking hate taurus", and that i am actually referring to taurus as the concept, the archetype - which i also don't truly hate - and not all people with their sun in taurus:
"yea well see i try to not get caught up in that stuff because like i don't want to let that define me you know?"
and i get it. but here is the real point. not bc it's a big deal but bc he was saying it to shut me up so now i have to lmao. whether he gives a shit about the fact that his sun is in taurus or not, this Friend is still always late. he's also incredibly stubborn, but good at talking about himself as tho he is not. he's mega sensitive, and wil lecture you on shit he has big ole feelings about but in a way that sounds like he knows what he is factually talking aboutu (even tho everyone can tell he does not. i mean it like. everyone has beef w him over this). he is a great businessman and has his shit in pies all over town or whatever.
and whether i knew anything about my chart or not, i am still an overbarring perfectionist toward my own endeavors, to the point where i sabotage my own self because i feel guilty letting myself put out art or take action toward goals that are anything less than perfect. i can overthink myself into any emotion and motivation i decide to, like somebody with not one but two air signs in their big three. and i also let my sappy ass leo rising decide what those emotions and motivations should be today. but libra and aquarius will make it sound logical every time i swear to god.
but because i am into astrology i know my faults and how to deal w them, and my friend keeps on living life as a stubborn obnoxious sucker with no self awareness!
oh, i'm just kidding. well i am a little bit kidding.
like maybe astrology is fake, right? of course. duh. okay. moving forward. it's just pattern recognition, and humans are notoriously hardwired to be good at that. it's why we invent bogus ass languages and then can still become fluent in them. i dig the entire ambiance. it's very dramatic and romantic in some ways, right? look at the planets to show you your own soul, and also all the ways in which you suck. i dig that! but if all this hyper awareness of a human created pattern is helping me be self aware of my own faults and strengths and biases in a practical way then like. come on. just let me have my aesthetic.
(and my aesthetic says taurus: get it together, please)
