i like just the way you are

I think that I would like to do a flash prompt event during 3weeks4dreamwidth. Now watch as I eventually start planning to do this, and then, when the time comes, refuse to tag it so it turns up on the feed. This is another step in my attempting to do things because I went to see them happen even though I am very self-conscious about the fact that I look like I have no friends when I do this. Case in point: Chemy Card Spring Silly at precuretokupromp. It's fine! Everything's fine! Don't pity me!

Because I've been kind of bummed out about stuff, I've still thinking about the ebb and flow of these little streams within fandoms I enjoy that eventually run into the sea of just general tokusatsu fandom the greater the distance from their airing becomes. I tried to look elsewhere for engagement with the shows I like, I begged people to introduce me to their friends, I even went looking on ao3, and I still came away mostly empty of hand. On fedi recently, kera posted some thoughts on filing the serial numbers off of fandoms you have put a lot of work into developing beyond the context of the original source material. In fact, her account is a treasure trove of this kind of inspiration, and each time the subject is broached, I think about it as I procrastinate on posting a second big Shiori post in which I continue to argue with Hasegawa Keiichi about the way the world he was hired to write works. What would I even call a Shiori expy, I asked myself recently, and the answer came back too quickly: Kotone Shiori. Because コトネ, Kotone in katakana, would be close to sounding like コートニー (Courtney). Get it? It's funny. I'm obsessed.

I'm not doing this, I just want to say. But if I was, I thought it would be funny. I think that the reason I've been even considering it is that I realise that as those rivers run closer to the sea, I'm going to make myself more miserable expecting conversation when the topic I wish to discuss is considered settled by others. I feel like I make this kind of post frequently when what it comes down to is basically: I'm going to look at making things in another way so I don't get sad.

What else is going on? Not much! I'm reading Abarat at the moment, which, for some reason, is one of the few Clive Barker books I didn't read when it came out. I'm properly watching the adaptation of Miyuki by Adachi Mitsuru, which I have been on-off-again watching since 2013 when I was going through a moment where I really wanted to talk about love triangles and first discovered the series. Because I'm watching the adaptation of Yume Senshi Wingman by Katsura Masakazu (sorry, it's tokusatsu related!) at the same time, and because both shows came out within a year of one another, the dynamics between the love triangles in each show are sort of blurring into one huge love hexagon. I'm also steadily and happily reading a variety of yuri manga in the wild and ignoring Rebecca Silverstein's opinion about them all.

That's it. It's spring. I want to keep making things. I'm still watching lonely, livestreamed ice-skating events on youtube at work. Season 2 of The X-Files is on abema but it's sadly not eligible for catch-up. I'm going to start re-watching Kindred: the Embraced again and you can't stop me.