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okay so this is weird timing and also just a weird thought to have but in the middle of running tech for a show right now and for some reason i just kinda zoned out thinking about how i'm like. part of this community rn and stuff. and i have like. obligations and connections and people have impressions of me. all up in this local theater populace or whatever. and how i never planned this but now it's taking all my time and i don't hate it by any means but i'm also not busy doing certain things i would rather be doing and that a good deal of my excuses to myself for that comes from how much i appreciate company and also helping people i care for. and i just thought "how did i get here?" and idk if it's supposed to mean anything significant or if i'm just tired bc it is incredibly hot and i have been here since 10am but it was a kinda dramatic internal moment ngl