i sure love being articulate about useful things, just look at me!

HOLY SHIT i had a dream last night that i was listening to an entire playlist of some choice ass tunes and i only just now realized none of them exist and i can never listen to them again lmfao i'm so sad

for posterity i.e future me who will think i actually want to take on the endeavor of recreating this ambience, there are a number of elements to keep in mind:

• if it were any soshi song it would be wake up (slept on i swear), but other than that it was too dark even for rdr soshi. BUT if there were any vibezzz??? the immensity of watching the karma butterfly dance from the tokyo dome concert dvd and you cry just because it is so beautiful and also you're gay and in love w them.


• also simultaneously like the whole ominous aesthetic of grimes' we appreciate power but also with the energy of all the elon musk memes in the comments trailing right behind


• then also also, imagining it's 2014 again and leaving your stupid crush's house at 1 in the morning after NOT making out bc you are both idiots and obviously in love with each other but too shy and anxiety ridden to say anything but you are still all giddy and smiley and shit and phoner to arizona comes up on shuffle and you turn it up so loud and there's nobody else on the road almost the entire way back into town and you're blasting the ac on your face for some reason.


• living that weird moment when you look at just below high quality picures of yoursef not trendy enough for insta but you realize if you were murdered that'd be what they'd use in the memorial service graphics


• also every stupid late night cover of teen suicide songs you posted to your ptsd vent blog back when you were on tumblr every day. but all the parts of that that were just genuine and impulsive and honest and none of the wallowing or self loathing. plus the glitch editing lmao


• if the makeup looks from isshehungry's instagram were a song


• being on top of the parking garage behind whiskey row on the weekend and you can hear like five bands playing different songs and you didn't wear enough layers and it's kinda chilly


• unironically, neon on black myspace themes and coordinating xanga blog layouts ajkdgrshkjdbhkdfgs

this mixtape dropping soon watch tf out world