oh the woes of the pretentious artiste~

i notice myself stifling my inspirations because i am scared of outdoing my future self. one personal project that i am really passionate and excited for i have kept on the back-burner for the past two years bc it is so important to me that i keep imagining it as my magnum opus, so i cannot share it with the world until it is 100% perfect! but that is silly and also unhelpful.

so instead, i am choosing to accept that i will always do better tomorrow. i always want everything i work on to be the best i can possibly make it. but i have to be okay with the fact that if i made it tomorrow, it would be better. i would know more. i would have more experience. i would be more effective at executing the vision in my head. and that that's okay. but that i am allowed to to the best i can do today. and when i do better tomorrow, it will be on a project even cooler than the one i thought of today! so i can worry about the ones i've got now, and not worry about tomorrow until it happens.

and i invite anyone and everyone to hold me accountable for this decision because it is far more easier said than done haha