yawns w my aura
Aug. 1st, 2018 07:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
venusundaewow! i sure have been busy!!!
it's been ood busy tho. i was a lead instructor for wo of the youth programs at the theater this year and boy howdy does that just take up all of your time and energy while it happens wooo.
but it was fun and sweet and entertaining and there was like thirteen minutes of drama ever in the past five weeks and most of that was just six years olds crying for a sec over not being cast as the part they wanted tbh.
like it went spectacularly well! which, while also just being a greatt thing to experience, is also a big ole "screw you!" to the people who said i would suck at directing kids and blamed all the issues that happened in their own children's shows on me bc they can't own up to their own shortcomngs hm hm hm
wow petty much lmao, only just a little! bc truly it was such an awesome experience overall that it outweighs that bit sevenfold! i'm only thinkin about it bc someone reminded me of it yesterday haha.
after one of our performances one of our kids was chillin backstage w his mom and i passed them and was compelled to say "leo, thank you for being in this show!" and he looked so surprised and was immediately like "i should be saying thank you to you for letting me be in it!" which i just thought was so sweet and omg i've been thinking about it daily :')
like even if the rest of the camp had sucked and everything else was a mess, that one little interaction would have made everything worth it.
but it wasn't! nothing sucked and there was no mess! all these kids were sweet and talented and fun and i'm so so so glad to have been part of this experience with them.
a grandma emailed me the other day to tell me that one of our performers, on her drive back home to california, told her mom that "it was an experience she would want to have again for every day of her life" sobs. how adorable is that? i'm so honored.
i had been thinking a lot about how much time theater was taking away from personal art and business projects i wanted to undertake, how upset i was at how people at the theater treat me when i do my job well and do all that is asked of me, and how exhausting it is. but thankfully this experience with these kids happened when it did.
i honestly was thinking for a while of just telling the theater to find another graphic designer and uh forget my number and never email me again bye i'm tired lmao. but then these kids reminded me... i don't hate theater! adults just suck! but if all i ever did again as far as my involvement w this theater goes is work on the family shows then i'd be totally chill w that.
it's when i have to work w adults and get caught up in all their shady ugly drama and negativity and pretentious weird bullshit ??? that i get depressed and feel lost and gross and tired and like i am doing the wrong ass shit with my life! like newsflash: theater people are dramatic?! who would have guessed smh
like ofc, working with the kids makes me tired. boy howdy does it exhaust me. but never in the same way as listening to adults be ingenuine and cruel tbh.
and frankly i don't wanna give that shit the time of day anymore 💅 i'm better than that haha
and frankly i've got bigger and better things to do, too!
and i haven't had the time or energy to write here in a while so i'm kinda just rambling about what comes to mind from the past few weeks.
basically things were great! i'm loving life! and i can't wait for things to just keep getting better and better!!! ♡
it's been ood busy tho. i was a lead instructor for wo of the youth programs at the theater this year and boy howdy does that just take up all of your time and energy while it happens wooo.
but it was fun and sweet and entertaining and there was like thirteen minutes of drama ever in the past five weeks and most of that was just six years olds crying for a sec over not being cast as the part they wanted tbh.
like it went spectacularly well! which, while also just being a greatt thing to experience, is also a big ole "screw you!" to the people who said i would suck at directing kids and blamed all the issues that happened in their own children's shows on me bc they can't own up to their own shortcomngs hm hm hm
wow petty much lmao, only just a little! bc truly it was such an awesome experience overall that it outweighs that bit sevenfold! i'm only thinkin about it bc someone reminded me of it yesterday haha.
after one of our performances one of our kids was chillin backstage w his mom and i passed them and was compelled to say "leo, thank you for being in this show!" and he looked so surprised and was immediately like "i should be saying thank you to you for letting me be in it!" which i just thought was so sweet and omg i've been thinking about it daily :')
like even if the rest of the camp had sucked and everything else was a mess, that one little interaction would have made everything worth it.
but it wasn't! nothing sucked and there was no mess! all these kids were sweet and talented and fun and i'm so so so glad to have been part of this experience with them.
a grandma emailed me the other day to tell me that one of our performers, on her drive back home to california, told her mom that "it was an experience she would want to have again for every day of her life" sobs. how adorable is that? i'm so honored.
i had been thinking a lot about how much time theater was taking away from personal art and business projects i wanted to undertake, how upset i was at how people at the theater treat me when i do my job well and do all that is asked of me, and how exhausting it is. but thankfully this experience with these kids happened when it did.
i honestly was thinking for a while of just telling the theater to find another graphic designer and uh forget my number and never email me again bye i'm tired lmao. but then these kids reminded me... i don't hate theater! adults just suck! but if all i ever did again as far as my involvement w this theater goes is work on the family shows then i'd be totally chill w that.
it's when i have to work w adults and get caught up in all their shady ugly drama and negativity and pretentious weird bullshit ??? that i get depressed and feel lost and gross and tired and like i am doing the wrong ass shit with my life! like newsflash: theater people are dramatic?! who would have guessed smh
like ofc, working with the kids makes me tired. boy howdy does it exhaust me. but never in the same way as listening to adults be ingenuine and cruel tbh.
and frankly i don't wanna give that shit the time of day anymore 💅 i'm better than that haha
and frankly i've got bigger and better things to do, too!
and i haven't had the time or energy to write here in a while so i'm kinda just rambling about what comes to mind from the past few weeks.
basically things were great! i'm loving life! and i can't wait for things to just keep getting better and better!!! ♡
