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[venusundae]

i can't feel everything all at once like i could before. with the world falling apart around me i can know it and i can see it but i cannot feel it in intense aching bursts. i feel it with a part of my brain that understands, but my heart is still. it is covered and it is protected. and this is my armor. because my paradise is right over the hill. it's right over there i can almost taste it. but if i were to feel everything the way i used to i wouldn't make it there. i am not fully myself but i know that my journey is to a me that is the most genuine that i have ever known. and so i can take this armor off once i am over that hill.