chokes on my own spit and dies

honestly every time i'm like "now this is top tier #lesbian aesthetic and i'll never top myself" something even gayer happens and it's entirely my fault

whitney asked to come over early to hang out before we drove all the way out to pv (kill me i hate pv) together for shakesbeer (which i didn't hate so it's okay) and i didn't say no so i spent all morning cleaning my room lmao. which was good bc i honestly hate living in a mess and i know i had purposefully given up my claim over this space so i could leave it behind and when spooky shit happened i no longer had as powerful a say over tellin shit to hop tf outta my space bc it wasn't mine! i didn't own it!

anyway i found this old ass thing i wrote, probably in some group therapy session bc it was in my clinic binder w all my dbt handouts and crisis plans lmfao. and god it is just. the gayest shit. ( boy howdy )

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okay so this is pretty goofy, like idk why i am like this. but i've been all annoyed w the teensy ants in the kitchen lately. it's a regional problem i guess. but they get into everything and it especially annoys me when they get into my kitty's food bc i dust em off every time i give him a new scoop wash his plate and everything but if he leaves a lil bit he can't even come back and finish it later bc they've INFILTRATED! so rude. (plus lately romeo gets scared of like random ass noises and stops eating and runs away from the kitchen even if he only took one bite so i rly want it to be there for him later if he want's to come back to it!!!)

but okay lmao i went to go feed him just now actually and even said to him aloud "i'll feed you honey let's just scoot all these lil ants off here" but when i picked up the plate there weren't any and i was immediately like "oh it's dark they are busy slumberin instead" AND ? ?? ? ? ??? IDK WHY but i thought that was rly cute? like 1) duh. 2) DUH it's fuckin night most shit is asleep just bc it's annoying doesn't mean it doesn't rest from being annoying sometimes 3) you hate them shut up

but whatever. sleeping ants. how cute. just saying @ mother nature, i know i get busy but i rly do see you out here girl, love ya xoxo