genuine hatred actually

[venusundae]

god i am honestly so sick in the fucking head and i can tell? all the time??? whenever i do fucking anything like it's not like i don't know it. it's not like i can't tell and it's not like i don't wish with every part of me that i could just not be this way. i know it i know all about it and that just makes it worse. i wish i didn't know i was fuckign crazy and that it is apparent in everything i do.